Sometimes life feels like the twilight zone. We find ourselves repeating and returning to the same deep-seated wounds and patterns. Everyone has their thing. Sometimes it is more than one and we have different issues at different times in our life.

Before I met my husband I was in a cycle of bad relationship after bad relationship. Every time I was manifesting or I went to a psychic (or tarot or medium or all the above), I was uber focused on finding a husband. I wanted to know where the person was for me. When would I meet him, where would I find him? A big part of the wound for me was not having self-love and not finding myself worthy. So I would accept half relationships and situationships that ultimately ended up hurting me until I broke the pattern and finally decided that I wanted and deserved more.

Following that I became hyper-focused on my purpose and on when I would leave my corporate job. I would say I can manifest anything except the ability to work for myself. I had deep wounds and a lot of backwards belief systems about hustling and the way that money can come. I grew up with a family who put a great deal of emphasis on work ethic. I also spent a decade doing the same work as my father so there were ancestral wounds not only in my immediate family but dating back to my grandfather that came over on a boat from Italy. To top it all off I grew up in a very affluent area and was not wealthy. The money and career wounds for me were Pandora’s box of ancestral trauma, past life trauma, belief systems and more. It took me several years and a chronic illness to finally untangle those but that is another story for another time (if you want more on that journey, let me know and I will write about it!).

But enough about me, let’s talk about you. If you are feeling stuck on where to even begin with these patterns and wounds, I have a couple of places where you can look.

1. Find out where Chiron is in your natal chart. Locating Chiron in your chart and figuring out what sign it is in and what house is like finding a key to understanding what you came into this lifetime to heal. It shows you your soul’s wound and your path of healing that was intended before you even came in. For example, my chiron is in cancer (emotional security, family, fitting in) in the 9th house (Beliefs, education, meaning, exploration). A big one for me is feeling safe when I step outside of my comfort zone, feeling worthy and having imposter syndrome when I move against the current. Will I be accepted? Am I enough? I am going to put brief explanations of the signs and houses below, but I suggest finding yours and then typing it into search to find more information on your personal placement.

2. The second place to look is with what trauma is stuck in your energy footprint. As souls, we come into this lifetime past life contracts, lessons to be learned and wounds to be healed. Oftentimes there will be patterns being lived out in real time in your life that you have experienced before but offering a chance to change the outcome. These past life contracts and wounds impact us in our day to day life. I see it all the time. Every time someone comes to me for a session, a past life will come through. It is always the one that is impacting the person most in that moment and it always leaves traces. For example someone will come to me saying they feel stuck in their love life. And maybe it shows up physically like chest tightness or pain, or difficulty breathing. A past life will come through where maybe they were betrayed by a lover and now today that trauma impacts them because they have trust issues. They are always waiting for the other shoe to drop because their soul experienced a time when it did. Oftentimes it is your soul’s way of protecting you from that happening again. So you need to become aware of this past trauma and let it go. You need to let your soul know that you no longer need this protection and that you are ready and open to experiencing love again.

If you are curious about removing these patterns and traumas, you can come see someone like me for a session (they are no longer on my website so reach out to me directly) or on my membership I have past life journeys to help you find and remove the wound yourself. Either way, this is “the work” everyone talks about. If you are sick of the same cycles happening and want to make a real change you need to do something you have never done, you need to step out of the normal patterning and habits. You need to break the chain. Let me know what other topics like this you’d like me to cover, I am ready to spill!

I’ve been feeling called lately to generate weekly and monthly energy updates for you all. I often give sporadic updates, which is sort of how I roll but especially as we go into holiday season (cue holiday mayhem) I figured it would be more beneficial to set everyone up with monthly and weekly channeled updates on the energy around us. Monthly updates will be more a channeled overview of what to expect energy wise, whereas the weekly updates will be a level deeper to include physical ailments as well. Let’s dive into what you can expect for November.

The past couple of weeks you may have felt old habits, wounds and routines coming to the surface. All of these revelations have been leading you to the clarity you are now finding. While you may have noticed things you wanted to change or realized that you are fed up with the way your life has been going, you will not see the actions of the change implemented until after Mercury and Venus come out of retrograde and go direct on the 13th.

These first two weeks are a great time for behind the scenes work, meaning that you are making plans and setting the groundwork for what you want to accomplish. Goals you have been working towards that have felt frustrating are finally going to show results. You may have been feeling frustrated as you have been putting the work in for quite some time without seeing any fruits of your labor. The past few weeks you may have been asking yourself if it’s even worth it anymore? You’ve been feeling tired, burnt out, stressed and you feel like you are banging your head against a wall. This is the moment to keep going. Don’t give up just yet you are RIGHT there. When Mercury and Venus turn direct on the 13th you will finally begin to see your hard work paying off. Don’t quit before it all comes together. There have been delays and road blocks everywhere on your journey, but it is not for naught. Stay the course.

Use the first half of the month to plan and organize, once the middle of the month comes everything is going to speed up and you are going to wish you put schedules and systems in place. Continue to clean out your space to make room for what is to come, whether that is energetically, emotionally or physically. This is a good time to look at how far you have come and evaluate what no longer fits into the new picture of your life. This quiet time of reflection and shifting behind the scenes will come to an end at the middle of the month.

The end of the month is a harvest season, there will be social events, opportunities knocking on your door and your big payoff is coming. The seeds you have planted are finally ready. Relationships are blooming at this time, whether it is new friendships, networking or love, you will find yourself attracting like-minded people and making connections in person. Placing yourself out of your comfort zone will pay-off. Think of it as a way of stepping into your higher self and the self you want to be. If you don’t feel fully there yet, you may never feel ready so step into the shoes of who you WANT to be and you will find the universe catching up to you. It is a physical way of manifesting to “dress for the job you want.” If you want to be a writer, write something for people to read, if you want to make new friends, attend events and places peoplelike your higher self would go. If you want to be more popular on social media, create and put yourself out there. You have to circulate to be seen and you are something worth seeing!

Lessons this month come from your actions. Huge payoffs are to be had for staying true to who you are. Remember that rest is often as productive as working. If your body calls for a rest or you find yourself getting sick, then take that time (especially in the beginning of the month when you are storing your energy for what is to come at the end!). Find excitement in your everyday life to shift from surviving to thriving. It is on YOU to change the energy of your experience, stop waiting for it to change on its own. Remember you can write the story of your life however you want it to be, so don’t waste that opportunity!

The past decade or so all we have heard is the power of saying YES. So much so that they even had that movie about it with Jim Carrey (Yes Man) about saying YES to life. This theory works pretty well if you are someone who usually turns down opportunities and most things, creating a life where you are shutting out the world. But what about those of us who have a problem saying no. Those of us who are people pleasing our ways through life, sacrificing our own happiness for the sake of not upsetting those around us.

People pleasing for me, is a disease, it’s an addiction. It comes from a deep-seated wound of wanting to be liked and being scared that people will be mad at me if I say no, even at the risk of sacrificing myself. The amount of things I have done that I haven’t wanted to, just to make other people happy is insane. And what comes after this is not a wooshing feeling of wow I am so happy I said yes, but usually a feeling of resentment and regret. I get angry at myself for saying yes to something I didn’t want to do and I secretly resent the person for even asking me as if it is their fault that I have no boundaries.

The ability to say no to things you truly don’t want to do tends to not settle in until your late 30’s when you actually start to let go (and you are so busy and burnt out that you just don’t care). In your teens and twenties it’s much harder to go against the group. Your friends are everything at that time and letting anyone down, god forbid someone gets mad at you, is the end of the world. Also, many of us were raised learning that we just have to do certain things - kissing all of our relatives even if we didn’t want to, going places we didn’t want to go just because its “the right thing to do,” etc. We are a generation of people pleasers.

As humans we are so deeply afraid of being alone. We don’t want people to get mad and abandon us, so we give up parts of ourselves for others. It really set in for me after I had my daughter and my capacity to say yes to things dwindled immensely. What I noticed is that saying NO to things I truly in my heart of hearts do not want to do is incredibly freeing. Not only that, but instead of closing off opportunities it opens them up. When we fill our lives with a bunch of stuff we don’t want to do, we are telling the universe we are too full to bring anything new that may light us up or excite us. We are allowing lower vibrational experiences in and therefore there is no room for higher vibe ones to come in.

When we say no to things that cause us to abandon ourselves (I’m talking about going to places and hanging out with people who drain us, not things like school pick up or work, please don’t abandon your kids or quit your job on behalf of me!) we tell the universe that we are respecting ourselves, we are putting up boundaries and clearing space for better things to come along. Turning down the wrong opportunities open us up to receive the right ones. We are respecting ourselves and putting up healthy boundaries.

Not saying that I don’t still force myself to do things from time to time (we all have some obligations we just can’t get out of), but I have gotten a lot better at saying NO to the things I can control. Saying no to places or spaces where I feel I abandon my true self or where I am a lesser version of myself - or saying no to things I do not have the room for in my life - whether I upset someone or not - has also helped me to see what relationships and experiences drain me. Are you feeding or maintaining a relationship just because you feel like you should? What does the experience or relationship bring you? Is it reciprocal or one-sided? A lot of times we keep things going because we feel like we should, not because we even want to. I am here to tell you it is okay to let go and okay to say no ( a lot of Dr. Seuss in my house lately). It isn’t selfish to protect yourself.

If you aren’t sure where to start, think about how someone or something makes you feel. If someone texts or calls you and your stomach drops or you feel that adrenaline, that might not be a relationship or experience that serves you. If someone asks you to do something, tune into your body for a second and see how it feels. If it pains you to say yes and feels like forcing yourself, ask yourself if its something you have to do or if its something you can let go. And I guarantee that if you find the courage within yourself to pull away or not answer, or place that healthy boundary, the universe will open the space for things that light you up instead.

Whenever I am having an off week or feeling out of sorts and I notice that others around me are going through similar feelings, I know there is something larger at play than just me being in my feelings. We are sensitive b…

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In early 2025 I was deep into my spiritual journey. I was doing my energy work sessions on other people frequently, as well as working on myself. I was constantly conversing with the universe asking for signs and letting my guides know I was ready for more. I forgot however to add in a little caveat that while I was ready for more, I was NOT ready for more by any means necessary including physical harm to myself (or traumatic experiences for my family). One Saturday afternoon at home, after a morning group channeling session and one the night before, I raised my hands to the sky and said “I am ready for more! Show me.” Note: This is the second time that I have done this action - the first time was in 2021 where I lost my job hours later and subsequently changed the path of my life but that’s another story for another time!

A few hours later, while my daughter was downstairs with my parents, I walked into my living room to tell my husband we should facetime my in-laws. The next thing I remember was feeling like I was in a dream and seeing police walking into my house. My father was ushering the police in as I tried to piece together what had happened. My first thought was “I’m in trouble, what did I do?” It felt like when I was in high school and got caught drinking or smoking by my parents. My husband was sitting directly next to me, holding my hand and saying “we think you had a seizure, you passed out.” What? Me? I have never had a seizure or passed out in my life. I desperately tried to piece everything together while the EMTs asked me questions. I felt like I was in a dream state. We had only moved into our house in CT in December so I was struggling to recognize where I was. I only began to remember my surroundings when the ambulance drove me away from our house.

My husband went on to explain later that I had suddenly dropped to the ground, hitting the coffee table on the way down. Laying on the floor I was seizing and foaming at the mouth. And then I was entirely unconscious, not breathing and he had to do CPR to revive me. We later found out that it was a grand mal seizure (a big one!), with no rhyme or reason for the event to occur. I never had one before and I haven’t had one since (knock on wood!). But the experience changed me thoroughly…

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I never felt good enough to make the jump into working fully for myself until a fateful day in April when I lifted my arms to the sky and said “I’m ready universe, show me what you’ve got!” I lost my job that afternoon. It was now or never to make my own business work. I made a deal with my husband that if I wasn’t making any money in my own business by July I would get another job. If I was making money by July, I would keep going and see how far I could take it.

In the largest trust fall of my life I let go and handed it over to the universe and the universe delivered. In June I went viral on social media and by July I was in fact making money working in my own business. By September I was bringing in $20-$30k per month, a dream fulfilled. I was doing it. However, when I got pregnant that November, I learned some hard truths about the business I had built.

First of all, it wasn’t sustainable for me physically, mentally or emotionally. The amount of work I had to put in was burning me out and I was terrified if I stopped or slowed down, that it would all fall apart (spoiler alert - it did.)

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I grew up in the early 90’s, a time where it wasn’t considered everyday conversation to discuss mental health. The only kids who were diagnosed with ADHD or ADD as we used to call it, were the “hyper” kids. The kids who had so much energy they bounced off the walls. In my mind, the picture of ADHD was a 10 year old boy who couldn’t sit down in class. Never me, someone who excelled at sports and got straight A’s (until High School when I partied instead, but that is a different story!).

As I got older and into the workforce, more knowledge began to come out about ADHD. Someone who can’t sit still, can’t stay on topic, is jumpy and fidgety. Not me, not someone who was an overachiever, a work-aholic. Anxiety - sure, depression - sometimes, over whlem - definitely but never ADHD.

Until I had my daughter and everything changed. I always struggled with anxiety, it wasn’t a surprise to me that it got worse after I gave birth. My postpartum anxiety and OCD were so bad that I ended up on medicine shortly after (you can read that story here). None of this was shocking to me but then it didn’t go away. I struggled through the experience of having my first child, of having a new born but then a year passed, and two years passed and it never got better. Things always felt so difficult. I constantly felt under the water. Doing everyday tasks became extremely difficult for me. I didn’t understand why I would look at people with multiple children and see them making it work and I still felt like I was drowning all the time with just one.

My dad even said to me once, “what happened to you, you used to be so sharp?” But then when I began to think about it, like, really think about it I realized that I never was all that “sharp” I was just masking it better. Thinking back I spent most of my adult career feeling like I was catching up. I was always feeling overwhelmed and stressed out to the point of having actual physical breakdowns. I was constantly burnt out from keeping up the level of expectations I had some to allow people to think was my norm. I remember someone once telling me that my “25% was some other people’s 100%.” And I took pride in that but it wasn’t true because I was killing myself to keep that up.

If I was honest with myself I was always scatterbrained. Even as a kid I was disorganized and careless. I would make careless errors from rushing or going fast. Mistakes on tests for example or the one time at basketball camp where I was going so fast I scored on the other team’s net. That year I won the “hustle award.”

But here’s the thing about masking ADHD - you can’t do it after you become a parent. There is no extra time, no being overproductive, no hiding. Before I was only responsible for myself so I could hide it but now as a parent I need to be ON all the time. There is no going to a social event and then becoming so overstimulated I hole up for 3 days. If I miss things, people notice. Kids need to be fed, they need to be changed, they need to be bathed. It adds a ton of things plus a ton more stimulation (the noise, the touching, etc). All of the things I now couldn’t hide like my forgetfulness, my disorganization, my starting 50 projects, my becoming overwhelmed and freezing, my overstimulation and all the things now were at the forefront. And to make matters worse I do have anxiety on top of the ADHD, mainly because they go hand in hand. Being this way makes me feel anxious and guilty and I beat myself up. Or I put myself into situations where I over promise (not because I am lying but because I truly believe I can do these things at the time) and then I become resentful of myself at my lack of ability to achieve the unrealistic goals I set for myself. It’s a cruel cycle.

I started seeing posts online describing what I was going through and then a friend of mine went and got tested after having similar experiences. This inspired me to go and just check it out, just try and take the test. When I took it I scored a 99 on it showing that I am in the 99th percentile of people that have it! The 99th percentile! It honestly was so validating for me. I wasn’t just struggling because I was bad at being a mom or because I was unproductive, I was struggling because I have a mental health concern that has gone undiagnosed and not addressed for my entire life. And it isn’t anyone’s fault, I just hid it really well, like many women who get diagnosed late in life.

Now, I will say my journey with this isn’t finished yet. Because I am pregnant, I can’t be placed on any of the standard treatments right now. I will however try medications when I am finished and keep you all updated on my journey. If this sounds like you, I highly recommend finding a place where there are experts who can do testing and get yourself help. There is no harm to getting a test done at the very least and learning one more thing about yourself!

Everyone is always talking about their sun sign (for anyone who doesn’t know that is your standard zodiac sign from the month you were born) and don’t get me wrong, it’s important. But knowing the other signs in your chart and where they are placed can be like having the answers to a test you didn’t study for. They can help you in various areas of your life and more than anything, they help you to know yourself, which I think is one of the most important pieces of this journey of life. We are here to explore, to get curious. We are here to learn (or remember) who we truly are. These birth chart placements can be a key in helping us along.

Venus is the planet of beauty, love, affection and attraction. Venus rules over all things divine feminine and desire. She’s the planet of the goddess of intimacy, of love, of balance. When we understand where Venus is within our chart we can have a strong impact on our business life, our creativity, our relationships and overall balance of life. It can help us understand how to become the most attractive, magnetic version of ourselves.

In order to understand how to interpret Venus within the birthchart, you need to understand your Venus sign (the sign where Venus sits within your specific birthchart). Now, you can do deeper into houses, transits and aspects, which I will on another day but for the sake of simplifying, lets just focus on signs today.

How to Find Venus in your Chart

(If you do not have your birth chart you can easily create it online via Astro-seek, Cafe Astrology or Astro Charts. You will need your time and location of birth in order to get an accurate read!)

Your Venus Sign

The sign where Venus is located within your birthchart represents your style and what you desire. It can tell you how you best show and receive affection, your style of beauty and what makes you the most attractive. And when I say attractive I don’t mean getting a makeover, I mean becoming magnetic. You know those people who walk into a room and you can feel their energy and pull. That is what I mean. That is venus energy. Depending on where Venus is located in your chart will depend upon how you specifically can harness this energy. For example if your Venus is in Aries, you are at your best when you are direct, when you beat around the bush and hide your emotions, you don’t show up as your most magnetic version. Virgos are at their best when they can hone into the details, the more they show discernment and thoughtfulness the more they can attract what it is they desire.

Find your sign below:

Venus in Aries: let yourself initiate

Themes: Directness, independence, enthusiasm and initiative.

Explore what happens when you express interest instead of waiting to be chosen. Invite someone out. Share an idea. Start something you’ve been imagining.

In relationships, be clear about what you want while remaining curious about the other person’s pace. In creative work, use the spark of enthusiasm to begin, then give the project enough structure to finish.

A practice: Take one small action you’ve postponed because it requires putting yourself forward.

Venus in Taurus: make room for enjoyment

Themes: Sensuality, steadiness, comfort, and quality.

Explore the appeal of being present. Wear something that feels luxurious. Enjoy a meal slowly. Choose materials, surroundings and experiences you genuinely appreciate.

In love, identify the everyday gestures that help you feel secure. In your work, consider how care and craftsmanship shape the experience you offer. Let quality be a deliberate choice within your resources.

A practice: Give an ordinary moment your full sensory attention, then notice what you want more of.

Venus in Gemini: follow your curiosity

Themes: Conversation, variety, wit, and playfulness.

Try letting people hear the questions and observations that make your mind yours. Ask something thoughtful. Tell the story. Share the unusual connection you noticed.

In love, create space for conversation and shared discovery. In creative work, experiment with writing, interviewing or explaining ideas. Choose one thread to develop so curiosity has a chance to become something substantial.

A practice: Start a conversation with a question you actually want answered.

Venus in Cancer: make connection feel welcoming

Themes: Tenderness, belonging, memory, and emotional security.

Explore the ways you help people feel considered: remembering a detail, making an introduction, or creating a welcoming environment. Those gestures can be meaningful when they’re freely chosen.

In love, say what helps you feel cared for, too. In creative work, explore stories, objects and experiences that carry personal meaning. Give your generosity boundaries so it remains sustainable.

A practice: Ask for one form of support that you usually give to others.

Venus in Leo: let your creative voice be visible

Themes: Warmth, generosity, romance, and expression.

This is my personal Venus sign and I’m utilizing it to bring more of my own voice into what I create. Less hiding, more being seen and celebrating my work. Sharing the story behind a piece I created, expressing vulnerability or creating something simply because I love it has given me a place to begin.

In love, share affection and ask for appreciation directly. In work, let people see your authorship and the care behind it.

A practice: Share something you’re proud of without immediately minimizing it.

Venus in Virgo: recognize the beauty in your care

Themes: Discernment, practical affection, thoughtfulness and detail.

Explore how your attention improves an experience. A careful edit, a useful suggestion or a small gesture can communicate something valuable.

In relationships, ask how the other person likes to receive affection rather than assuming helpfulness always meets the need. In creative work, let your standards support completion. Define what is included when you offer your time or expertise.

A practice: Share a finished piece when it meets your agreed standard, even if you can imagine another refinement.

Venus in Libra: give your own preferences a voice

Themes: Partnership, aesthetics, fairness, and harmony.

Explore the pleasure of bringing people, ideas, or visual elements together. Your choices can create an experience people enjoy, especially when your personal taste is present.

In relationships, make reciprocity specific. In creative collaborations, agree on roles and compensation early. Give yourself permission to have a preference even when someone else wants something different.

A practice: State what you would choose before asking what everyone else prefers.

Venus in Scorpio: create room for honest depth

Themes: Intimacy, loyalty, intensity, and depth.

Explore the appeal of paying close attention and speaking honestly. You can engage deeply with a person or subject while allowing privacy and choice.

In love, look for trust demonstrated through behavior. In creative work, follow a meaningful question beyond its obvious answer. When work or collaboration feels personal, clarify expectations rather than relying on emotional closeness.

A practice: Ask one honest question and listen without trying to control the answer.

Venus in Sagittarius: share what excites you

Themes: Freedom, adventure, candor, and discovery.

Explore what happens when you bring genuine enthusiasm into a conversation or project. Share something you’ve learned. Follow an unfamiliar subject. Invite someone into an experience you’re curious about.

In love, discuss what freedom looks like within commitment. In work, give the expansive idea a manageable format and a realistic deadline.

A practice: Choose one new experience, then make time to reflect on what it taught you.

Venus in Capricorn: show what you’re building

Themes: Reliability, commitment, respect, and lasting value.

Explore how consistency communicates care. Let people see both your capability and the person behind it.

In relationships, say the feeling aloud instead of expecting your actions to explain everything. In work, show evidence of what you deliver and make clear agreements. Enjoy progress while you’re still building.

A practice: Share a milestone and the personal reason it matters to you.

Venus in Aquarius: give your perspective a place

Themes: Originality, independence, friendship, and individuality.

Explore what is distinctive about the way you think. An unusual perspective can open a conversation, especially when you explain why it matters.

In love, communicate your needs for both space and closeness. In creative work, test an unconventional idea with people who can give useful feedback. Find communities where you can participate without editing away your personality.

A practice: Share an idea you’ve been withholding just because it feels different.

Venus in Pisces: give imagination a form

Themes: Compassion, sensitivity, imagination, and romance.

Explore the feelings and images you want to express. Give them a form through words, music, visual art, or whatever medium you enjoy.

In love, notice actual behavior alongside the possibilities you imagine. In creative work, support inspiration with a schedule, clear terms, and a defined scope. Boundaries can help you stay available to what you care about.

A practice: Turn one feeling or image into a small finished piece.

Bringing it together

Start by taking some of these smaller steps and practices I listed above and then see how it can impact you. For me (and my ADHD brain) I always want to do everything at once but do a lot better when I take one step at a time. To go deeper you can do research around the house location, the transits and the aspects. I will personally save those for another day, as to not overwhelm everyone!

This came through for my membership drop this week and I wanted to share it with more people just because it feels so true right now of pain, rebirth and shedding our skin. If you are going through something right now, this is for you.

If things feel painful right now that is because you are in the process of shedding a new skin. You are shedding all the old identities, all the old hurts, all the old pain. Everything that you have been wearing on your skin energetically and physically is shedding. Physically you may notice some symptoms coming up this week if they haven’t already that look like rashes or breakouts. This is a physical manifestation of your skin changing. Your next level of your soul, your next version of yourself is expanding and stretching to get out and it is now peaking through the surface of the old you. It is literally and figuratively breaking through.

The pain of this is only temporary as what lies on the other side of the pain is passion, is reward, is light. The pain of losing the old can hurt because the ego doesn’t want you to change. It will lash out against the bars of the prison holding you in but you can no longer be contained within four walls of an identity that isn’t you. It is not who you are meant to be.

As you expand you need new skin, a new body. It feels scary and unsafe to expand, to fight against what and who you have always known. It is terrifying to be new again. Why do you think newborns come into the world screaming? Like a new born you find yourself screaming, crying, so many tears flowing that are washing away the old self and replacing it with the new. That is not an easy process, birth never is (ask any mom!).

It is as beautiful as it is painful, however. Relish in the pain, knowing that this is why you came here. This is what you came to experience. Life. Real life. Being alive. Feeling emotion, feeling pain. Let it run through you but not drown you as you learn how to swim. Remember, this is not your first time, you have done this before. Wear your new skin proudly, knowing that just by reading this that you are not alone. You have never been alone. Welcome to the New World.

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Our bodies hold the stories of our past. And not just our past but also the past of our ancestors who have come before us. Our bodies are key storytellers, ancient keepers of the knowledge of the past.

Every contraction, ache or feeling of heaviness in our physical body is a message from deep within. It is a way of whispering, “Something is here that needs to be seen.”

We often think of trauma as something psychological. Something that lives in our memories, emotions or events we process through various practices, if we process it at all. Some things are too heavy to even look at. So we constrict, hold on tight, run and numb through the pain.

But the truth is, trauma is not just in the mind. It also can be stored in our tissues, our fascia, which is the living web of connective tissue that holds our muscles, organs and very sense of self together.

What Is Fascia and Why It Matters

Fascia is a network of connective tissue that weaves through the entire body, surrounding, connecting and supporting our muscles, bones and other tissues. It’s basically the glue that is holding us together. It is also the communication center of the body, the place where movement, sensation and emotion all connect. Science now shows that fascia is rich in sensory nerve endings and water, making it one of the body’s most intelligent systems. So we have proof. It feels. It remembers. It adapts.

How Trauma Becomes Physical Tension

When we face a moment of fear, grief, or overwhelm, trauma of any sort really (big T or little t) the nervous system activates a fight, flight or freeze response. When the body experiences especially traumatic physical injury, emotional pain or even prolonged stress, the fascia contracts to protect you. This is the freeze response of the nervous system protecting you without you even noticing it. As the muscles contract, they are ultimately holding and storing the trauma energy for later.. If the body can’t complete the response, as in if we suppress the feeling, dissociate the feeling, numb the feeling instead of processing it or moving it out, that the unspent survival energy has to go somewhere.

And if it doesn’t go out, well then it remains in the body.

Over time, that stored charge becomes tightness, pain, or emotional numbness.This is why people often feel emotional releases during bodywork, stretching or energy sessions because the body is finally exhaling what it’s held for years.

The Somatic Language of Fascia

Each point of tension in your body tells a story of an emotion or energy unexpressed.
Your tight chest may hold years of swallowed words.
Your clenched jaw might remember anger never voiced.
Your tense pelvis could carry grief, shame or fear passed down through generations.

Your body remembers.
The fascia mirrors your emotional landscape.

The Art of Releasing

The good news? Fascia is alive. It can change. It can heal. You can release the emotions and the energy stored in the body. But I do recommend having support while doing it, because bringing up some of these traumas can really unearth a lot of emotional pain. Working with experts is recommended! Those trained in trauma healing, therapists, somatic experts, etc.

To restore flow in the soul and body, you must create safety and stability within the physical, emotional, and energetic bodies.

Here are gentle yet powerful ways to begin:

• Breathwork: deep, rhythmic breathing sends safety signals to the body and softens the tissue

• Somatic movement: intuitive shaking, stretching or dance helps discharge stuck energy

• Myofascial release & bodywork: hands-on therapy to unwind stored tension and hydrate the tissues

• Hydration + magnesium: fascia thrives on water and electrolytes

• Energy & frequency work: vibrational healing, sound, and light activations harmonize the fascia on a cellular level. Try
  
  In my work, I do a unique combination of energy work, breathwork, bodywork, nutrition and somatics that helps you to release and restore your mind, body and soul. You can work with me 1:1 or if you need an accessible option, you can receive an activations and incredible resources for soul and body in my membership portal, Frequency RX. That is where the magic really happens. And as I mentioned above, if is it available to you, it truly does help to have additional support as you move through releasing larger traumas.

Releasing these emotions and energy is a return to wholeness, a return to you, a return to flow. A return to connection grounded in love with the one protects you, the one who holds you, your very own body.

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When we decide to go on spiritual journey and have an awakening, it is ultimately an ego death or killing of the identities that we had created for ourselves.

This happens because the more that we shed our layers and get to know our authentic self on a soul level, the more we don’t need to associate with any identity beyond who we are.

I have been going through this myself lately. Through kundalini and my own spiritual journey, I have come to notice all of the various identities I have taken up during the years, all the way from childhood. There are many reasons why we build these ego identities. For me it seems that it has always been about fitting in and feeling safe in my environment. The ego creates an armor to keep us safe from our fear of showing our true selves and all of the scary things associated with that - like, what if people don’t accept who I truly am? So we take up these identities that will be more accepted.

The problem is that the ego keeps us in that fear so when we begin to shed those identities, it clings to us harder. This can look like intrusive thoughts, feeling the need for control, anxiety and retreating to old coping mechanisms. It can look like comparing ourselves to others and imposter syndrome, which I feel like has just gotten worse in the social media age.

“Ego death” is what we call the process of dropping the ego self, leaving the identities behind and stepping into our highest, most authentic self.

When we are our highest self we are in flow, we don’t feel the need to cling to these past versions of ourselves or past patterns. We are anchored in the present and choosing love verses choosing fear. I don’t really like the words Ego Death or killing the ego because it seems so aggressive, but in truth, it is a fight and a painful one at that. You have to battle for your authentic self and decide that you are willing to go through the fire to come out on the other side. It is a process of rebirth and birthing anything is painful (I know from experience!). It can feel like heartbreak, like you are being ripped apart, it can be exhausting, it takes time, but it is worth it.

So what can you do if you are experiencing this? Tune in and ask yourself in situations who you are listening to - your ego or your higher self. Journal and meditate on the identities you have built, what is true and what isn’t?

I also recommend taking some time to rest and take care of you if you can. Ground in nature, take a salt bath, meditate, do breath work to connect your breath and body. I have some breathwork practices and meditations on here and on youtube that you can utilize if needed to help you! Just remember that it is a process and it takes time, give yourself grace and compassion. You are loved, you are protected and you are safe! If more support is needed come see me for a 1:1 or my mentorship program found HERE or Below!

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Dr. Valerie Camarano is a clinical psychologist and leader in public service based in New York City. With over a decade of experience, she is dedicated to enhancing the well-being of individuals and families through evidence-based and trauma-informed treatment. In her private practice, Dr. Camarano works with individuals and families, offering specialized clinical services to support those experiencing the effects of trauma, neurodivergence, and chronic overwhelm.

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1. Chronic Fatigue: exhaustion that doesn’t go away, even after a full night’s sleep. You wake up tired and struggle to get through your day. Sometimes you even feel tired and wired, which is exhausted but you cannot sleep.
   
   Recovery Tips:
   Prioritize rest, reduce screen time, and try relaxation techniques like deep breathing, kundalini activation or guided meditation.
   

2. Loss of Motivation, Lack of Creativity: Feeling disconnected from work, relationships, or hobbies. You’re emotionally distant and lack the enthusiasm you once had. You struggle to create and feel blocked and stagnant. Creator’s or Writer’s block, where you just cannot come up with anything and you don’t feel like doing anything.
   
   Recovery Tips:
   Reconnect with people or activities you love. Change up your routine - for example take a ride to a place you have never been. Try something new or visit a place you have never been. When I feel like this I go on a drive to a new place and explore, letting new inspiration come in.

3. Physical Symptoms: Headaches, muscle tension, digestive problems, or insomnia, generalized aches and pains, feeling fluish. Prolonged stress can weaken your immune system and cause you to get sick repeatedly, as well.

   
   Recovery Tips:
   Listen to your body and what it is trying to tell you! Often times if we ignore our body’s whispers, it will begin to scream. Pamper yourself by prioritizing self-care, exercise, healthy eating, and relaxation techniques.

4. Declining Productivity & Focus: This goes with the loss of creativity and motivation. It involved struggling with concentration, frequent mistakes, and difficulty completing tasks that once felt easy. You just don’t want to do anything.
   
   Recovery Tips:
   Break tasks into smaller chunks and allow your brain rest with regular breaks and rest. When you come back to it, write a list and cross things off one by one. If all else fails see if you can ask for help or delegate.

5. Emotional Instability & Irritability: You may feel more anxious, irritable, or over emotional in response to small things. You might find yourself snapping at people and getting angry quicker than normal.
   
   Recovery Tips: Try to be present and intentional. Practice mindfulness, journaling, or talk to someone you trust. Engage in hobbies that bring you joy.

If you need more support I recommend finding a health practitioner or for more information I actually have written an E-book on Adrenal Fatigue and Chronic Stress that you can find HERE or the button below!

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